Sunday, August 7, 2011

Detours

It is my last evening of summer vacation.  I go back to school tomorrow.  I have an overwhelming amount of anxiety right now...I've actually been fighting it all weekend.  I love school and I'm excited to meet my new students.  My problem is leaving my sweet little boy everyday.  This summer has been so fun (even though I've felt rotten) and the time I've spent with Jack has been wonderful.  It hit me that this will be the last summer we'll have with just him.  That's a sad thought and a happy one. 
I thought I had Jack's daycare situation worked out.  It will be his first experience with a daycare.  He has always stayed with a sitter or my MIL.  I think he'll really enjoy being around other kids, but I'm not sure about him going from 7:00-3:30.  I wanted a 1/2 day program, for better transition, but the afternoon pick up is the problem.  My MIL isn't working right now, so we had our solution: Daycare 8-12, and Mawmaw 12-3:30...perfect, right?  I felt amazing peace about that solution.  Then my MIL goes on a great interview and may be going to work asap!  What???  I hope she gets the job, I'm just sad for my little guy.   His world is about to be turned upside down and that tears my heart out.  
I was on my way to work in my classroom and I saw a church sign that really spoke to me.  "Detours can turn into real blessings" Hmm, ok Lord, I get it.  Your plan is always more than I can imagine. 
Right now, I have no idea what we're gonna do...IN ONE WEEK!! Please pray that I can have peace and this isn't too hard on my baby.  My heart is here at home, but until that's possible I hope we find something that's a "real blessing".  *sniff*